It's a fantastic feeling being finished with the book. Now i've got to figure out how to let the world know that I've written it.

The new Playboy arrived and I had it face down on my desk. When I cam back in the room the kids were giggling. "I could see her butt," said Ava. Chet just said, "Can I look at it?" I told them that it was a grownup magazine and squirreled it away. Have I ruined them?

Tomorrow I meet with the kidney transplant people. This is an appointment that I've been putting off for seven years. I'm still looking around for another solution. Even with a third kidney shoved inside your body you still have to take tons of pills every day. I feel druggy today, a little high. I had always thought that it was the steroids but I've been off them for years. Weird.